I've been wicked busy and haven't updated many things at all! So if you're curious as to how I am doing... well I have an email address and a phone... why don't you say hi sometime hmm?

Anyways my new job with AT&T has me working 6 days a week but its fun stuff. I've come out of my shell more due to the marketing I do now for them. Also home life is just dandy with my roommates barely bugging me for anything ever :) It feels almost like me living alone still but whenever I really want to I can find one of them and hang out. Its spiffy :)

On the unexpected front I found a male that was quite persistent in breaking down my barriers to my heart. I had turned him down once before around July of last year due to the fact that a certain little sister of mine was enamored with him. He sadly did not share her interest and they worked it out to staying friends. This of course was after long talks and my help in the matter in getting him to realize the pain he had put her through when he mentioned he was interested in me... No I didn't slaughter him for hurting her like that in the "oops" department of dumb mistakes however I did get intelligent responses, honest answers, and a sincere apology to my little sister for his mistake. After that we really didn't talk much at all except for game stuff with the Larp we go to.

Some time passes and my little sister finds a male that's interested in her and joy upon joys they hook up. It lasts for a little while as she goes through some difficult medical issues at the moment and helps her come out of her shell more and continue growing. This makes me ecstatic mind you for I have long wanted her to be happy in life in everything she has and does. If only things had been different in some way though. that's a different story however and not mine to tell.

Well during this time a mutual friend of ours gets really sick right before Christmas and it forces me to make a few decisions of which still slightly hurt to this day. My little sister was admitted into the hospital Christmas eve and I had to leave her to rush out to Michigan to pray that our friend was going to make it out of the hospital alive. I wind up spending 2.5 weeks out there making sure that said friend was going to live. (see previous journal entries)

Short story of it all I wind up making the decision to move out to Michigan to be near said friend. My little sister is saddened by this but it was time for a change anyways for me. A new beginning as Massachusetts had no longer held anything for me to hold onto really. I had been unemployed since Sept of 08 and even though I have many friends and family out on the east coast it no longer felt like home.

This is around the time that said male starts talking with me again in earnest this time. Apparently he hadn't given up on the possibility of something being there that I just didn't see. I wasn't looking for anything by way of relationships at this point seeing as I was still in slight pain from leaving my ex fiancee only 2 years before that. (I hope he is doing well and I wish nothing but the best for him. Fate let us have that time together and we both learned many things during those wonderful years.) So I move out to Michigan get settled and then somehow I wind up accepting plans for said male to come out to Michigan to visit me. "He's always wanted to travel and see new states anyways" he mused so I did what I typically do and shrugged and replied with a "sure you can visit"...

About a week before he's supposed to visit he looses his job due to crap at work from one of the bosses. This angers/depresses him but makes it easier for him to come see me that next weekend. Short version of this is he wound up staying 2.5 weeks with me out here. He managed to win my heart out from behind a vault and worm his way into my thoughts. He goes back home and talk then comes of where to go from here and the month passes. Things here for me feel different as in he's not here and should be. I kick my heart and emotions back into the closet trying to get a hold of myself and sanity. I drive down to him to meet up for our Larp at the end of the month for the first game and things feel normal again. I curse myself for being weak at this point and resign to failure.

Larp goes swimmingly and talk again happens after we get back to his house and I meet his parents of where we're both going. He expresses desire to move out to Michigan fully at this point and well my heart runs a full on siege on my mind. My mind rolls a botch and my heart crits... (Can we say I'm a D&D dork?) Anyways... this male has now confirmed that he indeed wishes/wants to move out here. He enjoyed the atmosphere of friendship around here and well *smiles* me I guess too. I have a date on which the move shall be completed and the next time I leave here to go back east I will be returning with him driving behind me or possibly with me in the passenger seat if I don't have to take my car out there at the end of this month for larp.

So my sanity went out the window, my heart has overruled my mind, and I'm sitting here writing a blog of unknown length at this point going: "Damn, life finally made a turn for the good". Now if only I could pass the joy and happiness along to everyone I know and Love!!!! I think I'd have to find Cupid and overtake his throne in order for that to happen though. Man that cherubim has done a number on me so many times over the years he really needs to stop.

Right so I've been babbling now and there's one last thing in here to say: Little sister I know you will read this and I am praying you find another companion that will suit all of your needs very soon. I know your male wasn't everything you needed and it was ok at the time. Learn from it and grow from it for soon enough someone will jump at you and make you melt into itty bitty pieces. Oh and sweetie? Thank you for not being mad at me for letting my heart get the better of me. I promise we'll spend more time together next time I'm down there.

The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me! My choice. For you. Requests may be honored.

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:
- You will get something.
- No guarantees that you will like what I make!
- What I create will be just for you.
- It'll be done sometime this year.
- I have no clue what it's going to be.
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange. It won't be anything offensive or poorly done.

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to repost this in your journal.

Hey all! So the landlord and landlady know about me planning to move finally and the move will be made on Feb 1st. I will have everything packed and ready to go into the truck by Friday Jan 30th. I'll be picking the truck up that day as well. The 31st will be the party at Lia's store.I'll be driving off on the 1st in a 17' Uhaul truck.

I will need drastic help on the 30th, the morning of the 31st, and all day on the 1st so I can be out of there by 5pm on the 1st. I wasn't expecting to have to rush this however the landlord has a couple of people interested in the old apt and well who am I to say no when i'm already halfway out of the door?

The only problem that will hurt is the Uhaul rental will be costing me $850 I will be getting my security deposit back which should be $430 and I can contribute another $100 but that leaves me with $320 still to pay. I am fully aware that times are rough right now and if anyone of my friends has or is willing to let me borrow this amount I will gladly pay it back as soon as my taxes come in.

I've gotten a few call backs for jobs already so this are looking up and Kevin is doing significantly better than he was just 3 weeks ago. Now lets pray everything goes without a hitch for the next couple of weeks shall we?

Life is and always will be precious to me especially when it comes to my dearest of friends. Right before Christmas my friend Kevin suffered a life altering sickness. MRSA had spread through his blood and while in the hospital he had 3 strokes. Now after beginning to recover from the infection and the strokes he will have to undergo massive physical therapy and have to be in assisted living etc. The main thing is he's alive and that's the amazing thing. There was a point in which I didn't think I'd hear his sarcastic humor ever again.

There is the good news and now here is the sad news for most of you living in MA... I have made the decision to move out to Michigan to help my friend recover through this difficult time in his life. I don't know exactly when the big move date will be most likely the middle of February. I'm coming back to MA on the 20th to begin the packing process. Any help with this is very welcome. I do not know how long I will be out in Michigan but for right now it's semi permanent.

I have applied to many jobs out here since making that difficult decision and will hopefully be hearing back from a few of them at least soon. For those of you in EOS I will be attempting to make all the games but realistically I promise to be at as many as I can. For the rest of you I promise to visit as much as possible as well.

I care for all of you and most of you in that dear and special category i'd do the same for if something like this ever happened to you (Of which I pray never does)
I will still be the same old me and can be reached via internet or text message on my phone (My plan has unlimited texts on it) or phone calls after 9 and weekends :)

Be safe and well everyone *Hugs*

OK so people need to stop getting sick. Period. All of my friends need to not get sick.

Yesterday after planning to go spend Christmas eve and most of Christmas day with my Brother and finding time for Linda & Bob and everybody else in there two simple phone calls shattered all of that.

The first one sent me into panic of the third degree. I got a call from Tiffany's cousin saying Tiff's in the hospital on morphine with an unknown pain in her right side and she's been in there since 130am. *twitches* I shower, I get dressed in record time, and throw my stuff in the car calling my brother saying i'll be late for dinner tonight cause i'm going to see my little sister.

Then the other bomb drops 3/4 of the way down to the hospital in which Tiff is located... Jim informs me that Kevin got worse. He was transferred to the ICU has had 3 strokes and has Marsa, a blood borne pathogen thats very agressive. He's scheduled for open heart surgery as soon as the Marsa is under control if thats possible at this point.

So I get to Tiff manage to choke out a "Please please get better cause I can't take the both of you being sick" and then I told her the bad news. I wanted to take her with me to keep her beside me but with her being in the hospital it wasn't possible.She told me to go and I gave her the Xmas present I found for her/her character Nadiya. We shared a few stories back and forth and then I left. A short visit and for that I promise I will make it up to her when I get back. I feel so bad about leaving her in there without me at her side but I know she's in good hands. (Love you Tiff.)

The rush home and frantic calls to EVERYONE in the MA group that were close to Kevin begin. I call Rich & Lav to watch my pets and I make the sad calls to let my Family know i'm not going to be there for Christmas. I'm hoping they forgive me for this one year Kevin's like a brother to me.

So yeah 13 hour drive later I get to Detroit Michigan at around 430 am. I'm tired, i'm twitchy, and i'm spread thin. Merry Christmas? Happy Hanukkah? Solstice and Yule are already past and I covered those bases already so shplah. I'll be going to see Kevin as soon as I can today. I'll update folks when I get more information one way or another. Stay safe everyone.

~Me

After a wonderful weekend: Spending the day with Linda on Friday. Shoveling and merriment with Linda and Bob for most of Saturday and enjoying the first half of their holiday party. Spending that evening with Bonnie, Jay, Danni, Brian, Adam, Amy, Caitlin, Jen, and Dak. Many pictures came of Sat night of which I expect to have soon (I hope). Sunday I traveled up to Dedham to visit with Kal and slept overnight after watching a marathon of movies with her.

Today as I go to leave I have 2 frantic voice mails and a text from Tiff stating that Kevin (Blanchard) is missing and was supposed to be at her house last night... I leave a message on Kevin's phone and then call tiff for an update hoping he had called her. I call Joefish after finding out Kevin was supposed to be driving out with Jen G and leave a message with him. Tiff calls me back and then I call Jim.
After all the round robining I find out that Kevin is in the hospital and has been since Saturday. At that point Jim doesn't have any other info for me and I go into panic mode.

Joe calls me back and I sadly vent my frustration of not being informed as Jen knew he was in the hospital but didn't have the (insert correct word here) to contact anyone to let the people who were expecting him on Sunday know he wasn't going with her... Joe informs me that she doesn't have any update on him either. So the waiting game begins.

Jim just called me to update me... To me the update frightens me. I have already begun making plans if things begin to get worse to head out there by car. I have room in my car for two people to come with me if they want. One spot has already been offered to Tiffany. Jim told me hes incoherent at best and has been since Saturday when admitted to the hospital. His blood sugar is out of control and they are working on that first before anything else. He didn't recognize Allison but he did recognize Jim after a bit. Like I said this update wasn't anything good however from what Jim could tell was that the doctors weren't acting like people should be contacted for emergency purposes etc.

For those of you that were there 3 years ago for me when my mom passed away know that this is almost exactly what happened to my mom. She went into the hospital on a Thursday and my brother and I didn't find out until sat night when things went to hell. So... Yeah... my ball of peace and happiness... right out the window. So even if i'm not of your faith please please help me pray for my friend. He's like a brother to me.

Yesterday was amusing. Left RI before the snow began its reign of terror from the skies around 130. Got to middleborough around 230 with it starting to come down at a meager pace. Shorlty there-after around 3 it began its quick decent from the sky and really began covering everything in sight.

Linda and I spent the evening chatting, sitting by the fire, finishing an extremely hard puzzle that glows in the dark (So awesome!), and eventually we cleared a path from the doorway to my car. I did the best thing to do at that point and walked to a spot in the lawn and made a classic snow angel. Yes, I like the snow. :P

We figured we'd only clear a path to my car and out back for Lola to run around in as a plow would come tomorrow at some point... Next morning came and whoops no plow had come. Franticly Linda and I went out and began clearing the driveway as preparations for the holiday party still needed to be done. Mind you we were joking all the while. Halfway through a neighbor came down with a snowblower and helped clear the rest of the driveway for us. I then ran out to get some last minute groceries needed.

The food is cooking and preparations are almost complete. I'll be late to the housewarming because a few people are looking foward to seeing me. But I will make it there :) I hope everyone stayed safe during the storm and it seems there is more to come soon. Becareful out there it's spastic on the roads!

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Gee really? A person who loves the night and wants to live longer just so she can document history as it's made? Who would have thought...

I should actually update this thing instead of letting people know i'm alive via dear santa memes ;)

Factoid 1: Still jobless but 4th interview with Prudential is tomorrow *Fingers and toes crossed*

Factoid 2: Thanksgiving was ok. The family didn't get together this year and it was well... really sad. I don't know how else to put it on that one. I spent it with friends and though it was entertaining it just wasn't the same.

Factoid 3: Larp is this coming weekend and it'll be fantastic :) Cold but fantastic and it'll get my mind of mom. It will have been 3 years as of the 12th of this month and the pain still hasn't gone away. I guess the fact that my brother and I watched her body let go of life probably didn't help me but I couldn't let go. Death has always been a hard thing for me even though I know its a part of nature and it must happen for new life to occur. I know I shouldn't blame myself for all the what-ifs, that could have been, or had I done this etc and I am fully aware she's better off in the ground than still living in so much pain. (Diabetes, 2 Herniated disks, Triple heart bypass surgery from a heart attack when I was 16, Minor Stroke when I was 22, etc.) I also know I was lucky to have her for even that amount of time especially since many children loose theirs much earlier. It just makes the holiday season hard for me. Especially since the family doesn't seem the same without her see previous factoid. I guess this is all I can say: Mom, I miss you.

Factoid 4: Dec 20th is Linda's holiday open house! Wooot! the 20th is also Bonnie/Jay's housewarming party! WOOT! I'm busy that day and night if you couldn't tell by this message :)

Factoid 5: I don't know what i'm doing for Christmas day yet. My brother hasn't let me know what he's doing yet and the only reliable thing I have currently is Linda & Bob being home like normal. So yeah still up in the air :)

Factoid 6: New year's parties: Jen invited me to this years from me being at last years party. Adam has invited me to his and amy's as well. I'm sure other people will wind up inviting me to theirs at some point. The answer is: I don't know. I've seen many people over the past 2-3 months and caught up with many of you. I may just wind up spending it alone with my cat and my wabbit. Not sure yet. Gotta get past the 12th and start thinking holiday thoughts first.

Factoid 7: I'm not in retail for the 2nd year in a row during the worst time to be in retail of the year. This brings joy to my heart and many less headaches to me. *beams*

Factoid 8: I'm stronger than I had previously accounted myself to be. I haven't been in a relationship for almost 2 years now and though it does get lonely especially during the sappy holiday seasons it has been a growth and learning curve for me. Go me :)

Factoid 9: For those of you reading this planning on getting me something: Do not get me anything expensive. You will make me feel bad. Whether you intend to or not that will be the result seeing as i've been unemployed since the begining of October. I appreciate people thinking of me but gifts this year are less welcome than an email saying "I'm thinking of you" or a card in the mail going "Can't wait to see you!" Over the past 2 years i've enjoyed company and knowing I am loved by friends and my family more than gifts. That is the true "spirit" of the holidays afterall :)

*Waves ok i've done enough chit-chatting everyone stay safe and if I don't see you have a wonderful holiday season! *BIG HUG!*

Oh I couldn't do just one so many were just too perfect!

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Thursday I put gum in scorpkitty1121's hair (-12 points). In August hismostfaithful and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). Last Friday I had a shoot-out with rival gang lords on the 5 near LA (-76 points). Last Sunday I set tahloran's puppy on fire (-66 points). In October I committed genocide... Sorry about that, mysterea (-5000 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-5143 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, Serenarayn

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Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Saturday I helped homestarwannab see the light (8 points). In March I pushed crysen in the mud (-17 points). In October I punched sircornelius in the arm (-10 points). In July I set modi15's puppy on fire (-66 points). Last Wednesday I bought porn for aythrea (10 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-75 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, Serenarayn

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Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In February I stole getoffended's purse (-30 points). Last month I set ndkid's puppy on fire (-66 points). In January I bought porn for rabdsquid (-10 points). In March I pulled magickbart's hair (-5 points). Last Tuesday I helped nebu hide a body (-173 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-284 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, Serenarayn

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Needless to say I wasn't nice very much this year it seems... and I sense santa has a theme for me... I don't know whether to run away screaming or laugh my ass off.

HAH! Another year another accomplishment. :)

Hope everyone is having a great day!

OH! Side note I actually have a bed in my bedroom now instead of my pull out couch each night! YAY for me! My Erinese Feng Shui is working slowly but surely :)

This year just may be the best and nearly the worst i've had all in one.
Yesterday at 420pm I was laid off. For the 2nd time this year...

This isn't as bad as last time though. This was a retail job with crappy bosses and unintelligent work. The first one was actually in my field and I cried alot that Feb 1st. That one stung like a bitch just because I was small and female. :/ This time it was the "Last one in first one out" deal as they are cutting back due to losses etc. It probably didnt help that I was most likely the highest paid operations girl there. Meh whatever. At least this time I got severance of some kind and I'll be calling unemployment first thing Monday morning.

My birthday is this week and I'm ammused by all of this as here I was going to be working it and now i'm not. This is slighlty a blessing and yet also a curse. In less than a week i'm going to be antsy, frustrated, and agitated by the fact 1/2 my day will not be taken up by doing something that gains me money. However this time I need to not settle and actually find something in the scientific field before I loose all of my talents in my field.

In other news i've met a bunch of new people joined into two really fun games thursday nights is earthdawn and saturday nights is D&D with once a month still being the larp. So all in all life is going alright :)

Tangent #1: Witches Brew still hasn't called me and I expect they won't by this point. It would have been such a fantastic place to work at too. All that tea and the environmentally conscious workplace is such an amazing thing nowadays. I wish we had something similar up here in MA near me. There might be one I haven't found it yet though.

Tangent #2: There are a lot of people that I haven't heard from in quite some time. This annoys me as i'm supposedly their friend. It takes 5 minutes to call, email, or write a letter to stay in touch. I know who are always going to be there for me that has been made quite clear. They know who they are because they hear from me on a weekly if not a daily basis. Those who haven't heard from me in quite some time normally means i've given up on trying to get my messages returned to me. If you have any guilty pangs here perhaps you're one of them. If not then there should be nothing wrong with our friendship.

Tangent #3: Its Autumn and we're in the sign of the Libra! Woooo Balance! *cackles* Ok I'm good :) Oh and the foliage is damned wonderful!!!!

I think thats all for now. Everyone have a wonderful weekend :)

King Richards Faire
Hear ye hear ye come one come all to the palace of King Richard on the 27th day of September. We meet in the front courtyard at 10 and a half bells.

Make sure you're dressed properly for the King will have your head if you besmirch his honor!

Ok seriously: Come join me and my friends on the 27th I'll be in costume... just don't know which one yet. It'll be 4 days from my birthday and one of the only chances for me to get out and have fun for work is sucking my soul down the drain.

Hooboy!

It has been an interesting past month!

Firstly: Hanging out with dave and xephyr one evening that lead to ammusing stories and lots of fun! The promise of purgatory Chasm has been uttered and eventually i'll be kidnapped to it. I have a feeling it will be soon.

Secondly: Antsy and jittery about Origins vacation that lead to near insanity when it wasn't comming fast enough.

Origins recap: I ran into: Carl, Andy, Kim, & Rob. I hung out with: Pendragon Chainmail, Renaissance Fashions in cohoots with Brute Force Leather, and the Utilikit distributors S&D Sellers. Hung out with Nathan D for a tiny bit up in the lab and was taught Volcano. Also, I was able to stop by and say hi to Nigel (Pirate friend of Jenny) but alas time wasn't on my side that day so saying hi was about the jist of it before I got snagged by my crew for dinner.

Oh right! The crew was: Danni, myself, Cj, and Nathan 2 (Egads I know too many men named nathan/nate/etc) We all shared a room and it was ammusement abound. Especially on sunday night... the bastards had me laughing for 25 minutes straight. My muscles will never be the same.

Oh! Almost forgot the first night we were there... Wednesday night when all hell was breaking loose with mother nature... yeah at 12:02 am we got the "get to the west wing a tornado has been sighted and is heading this way" Now had I not been in REM sleep I would have been "DUDE! That's fucking Awesome!"
However, I got woken up from rem sleep... Cj started having back muscle spams which lead him to be in a panic and Nathan 2 was panicking as well. Danni was all bouncy like normal but it didnt help block the panic atmosphere that I had no time to block out. Hence I midly worried and nearly sent a bad text to Linda which would have freaked them out :) Thanks for stopping me Cj! Safe to say i'm still here and no the tornado didnt hit our area it diverted and hit some poor farm I think...

Also of note spent nearly all of Sat in a D&D game run with the D20 Pro software and it was fantastic! The gm was fun and so were the other people playing. :) I'll be getting a copy of it to show folks soon :)

All in all Origins was fun and can't wait for next year!

Next up is 4th of july fun: Spent the morning with danni as she had slept over night the evening before. Had breakfast with her and her mom later in the day and then I headed over to Jens after Danni took off for Providence. Watched the end of First Knight and then Ever After with Jen and managed to stay peaceful after Josh made a very stupid comment. I'm sure by now he know's what it is too. Then met up with my brother for fireworks in B'water. All in all a great day :)

Lastly: Kevin B will be down from the 11th-15th i'll see him on the 13th :) The NELA fetish flea date is Saturday the 19th. I will be there modeling Chainmail for Pendragon Chainmail. Come see me!!! http://www.nelaonline.org/NELA.php


In other news: Bush is out of office soon... the elections are in November and even though the economy is sucking right now it'll rebound soon! Keep chins high and hopes alive folks! We can do it!

I was told last night that one of my recent posts was 'emo' this highly confused me as the only sad ones i've posted recently were the murder one and the extinct seal confirmation.

If me stating I need my vacation like whoa is emo then I suppose I should be shot for saying it. ;) So tjryan if anything in here is emo feel free to comment on it. :P

*relaxes at the store*

Come visit me if you're in the area!

~me

I have never ever wanted a weekend to be over so badly as I do this one.

I want to be in ohio away from the working world madness with friends surrounding me.

I want to bounce off the walls and try out new games and go total geekdom.

I want to relax goddamnit.

The words "how does it feel to want' also have run through my mind at the moment so i'll clarify on two things.

I need my sanity back and I need to cuddle up and relax/have fun with danimal.

This vacation can't come soon enough.


Side note Cj (who also is joining me on my vacation YAY! :) ) has been teaching me how to drive standard and it's so much fun! The next thing on my list will be motorcycle and i have so many people around me to learn from that'll be easy to do.

So if you are going to Origins let me know other than the people I already know are going :P
This is so I can add you into my calendar of things to do/ people to see... the reverse is also applicable in some cases ;)

Anywho... must go gather more things for the trip *waves* Bye!

If You're Happy And You Know It - Bomb Iraq
If you cannot find Osama,bomb Iraq.
If the terrorists are frisky,
Pakistan is looking shifty,
North Korea is too risky,
Bomb Iraq.

Stolen from his away message... *Laughs*